I ran away from you because I'm scared.
If you found out how depressed I'm you'd just be disgusted.
After all, you don't believe that depression actually exists and people are just being weak.
Today, someone bumped into me.
I flinched away as if I touched an oven.
It happens so much now, I can't control it.
I don't like when people touch me, or get too close.
I don't even know why.
I just don't like it.
I guess I'm just scared.
I'm scared of loosing you.
The thought of you with anyone else can bring me to tears.
I just love you and I'm sorry I'm so clingy, I just need you.
I wish I had the courage to wake you and say goodbye.
It felt so good just to lay there with you.
I didn't want to ruin it.
So I let you sleep as I walked out the door.
I haven't gone to school in two days.
No one has texted me to see where I was at.
I don't want to go to school tomorrow.
I already feel so low, I don't want to feel worse.